Failure to Launch

Annoyed last night at the inability to access Spa Girl. What it really boils down to is that I hate feeling helpless. It annoys the shit out of me. The conversation in my head last night pretty much boiled down to "fuck you." The old tape is playing and I want control, but atlas that is how it is in with relationships. Not that I know where we are with this. Although this was my worry in talking with her that she wouldn't be able to do a relationship. I went out with a woman Colleen a while ago in the same spot and she was great to be with, but she just wasn't there yet to do a relationship. I'm good today with my perspective back in place. I'll leave it be and see what she does.

Other than that I am tired. I'm use to having the breaks throughout the day and now with being busier they aren't there. It's a new lifestyle which I'm still getting use to. I'm happy to change, but there will be some bumps along the way.

For some reason the new people across the hall decided to spray paint today. It's pouring outside. So lets spray inside and flood the whole building with vapors. Morons.

Getting everything ready to head to NY tomorrow to see Eric. It's nice to not have to worry about many things like money or such. I'll see how everything is when I get back, but for now it's good.