I'm stuck in the past today and not liking it. The Comic called me yesterday very upset that she was informed they were going to foreclose on her house. She was very upset since she had been doing everything they wanted and paying the modified amount they agreed on. However since it wasn't the full amount they are now informing her that she is way past due and will start proceedings.
I'm a guy and I like to fix, but there is nothing for me to fix here. Or better said I can't afford to fix it. So I've been loving and supporting which is all I can do. However I don't like being powerless. I really don't. What's really got me is that I shared with her how it was for me when I separated and divorced from my ex. How I lost everything and pointed out what few things I own. Also how alone I felt. It really dragged me back. Like I'm feeling like I'm living that life again when I'm not. I know I buried most of those feeling along the way since it was just too much to handle. Now I've opened the door and they're all flying out. So when I got up all anxious this morning I had to sit around and enjoy my place for awhile just to let it sink in that everything is okay. I'm not back in that life 5-6 years ago. However the ick remains.