I'm being reminded that grieving is like a boomerang. Just when you think it's out of sight it comes back into view. I'm going through my day and every once in a while Kitcat will come to mind. It's really not that bad feeling wise, but it's a bump in the road. I did make myself go on the dating site where we met yesterday mostly to let go of this "what will she think" feeling. It's crap since I'm not the one that did anything wrong. Didn't contact anyone since I'm not in the mood to do that yet.
Well it's been a record week here in the office for which I'm grateful for. While I'm still in debt, my bills have all been paid and I still have my Eric vacation money intact. Now it just needs to stay that way for another month.
So this year I'm doing something for Father's day. Usually it's just another day for me since I don't see Eric to the following week or two. This year in the back of my mind I figure I'd have Kitcat to spend the day with since I knew she wouldn't have her son on that day. However since that's not to be. I got myself the concert ticket special today of $10 for the Lynyrd Skynyrd/Brett Michaels/38 Special concert on Father's day. I made it a singles event and we'll see what happens, but at least I'll be doing something special for me.