Odds & Ends

One part of my relationship with the Comic I'm still trying to get use to is the sickness.  I work hard to stay healthy so getting a cold is a very rare thing for me.  However since being with the Comic I've had to fight off quite a few.  Have to admit I'm not to happy about it.  I'd rather be using my resources for other things. Now I'm okay with her being sick, although I will point out what brought this on. This episode as well as her back problem have been brought on by visiting her niece who is quite dysfunctional.  I'm happy she has realized this since she came back this time and pretty much emotionally vomited on me for most of Friday night.  It wasn't that fun.

Last night's Game night with the singles was fun as always.  It's very reaffirming to hear people say how much they love it and how they've become close to everyone.  It's nice to have created something thing that has some lasting value.

Lastly I still think Eric is avoiding me on the phone for some reason.  I talked to him Friday night and it ended pretty quickly with him saying he was too tired from doing homework.  This isn't cool.  Since I'll see him next weekend I'll talk to him face to face.  I can never be sure where my ex is when we are talking on the phone. 

3 is a Magic Number

Well yesterday the Comic and I celebrated 3 months together. It's nice to know daily that things are rock solid between us. There is none of that mystery of not knowing where things are going. Also in the process I seem to have picked up a family which I find funny. It's like the Comic and I have been married for years the way her mother and sister treat me. The Comic says that not even her ex's picture graced the family home when she points out our picture there.

What was weird, was that at game night Saturday night, photographer sat next to the Comic. Even though I only went out with the Photographer twice 2 years ago, it was still weird to see them joking and hugging like best buds. Even weirder is that they gelled together so well.

I finally got to talk to Eric. He called me back Friday after I had called him the second time. He was upset from misbehaving and didn't want to talk. It upset me to hear him that way. One to be powerless to do anything. The other I can't tell if its from some real thing he did or some crazy shit my ex is playing. Anyway we did get to talk yesterday about school and stuff which was fun. I asked about his student id, but he had no idea what it was. So I asked him to find out what it was so I can track his school work online which will be cool for me.

Working on staying positive today. I think not having a cushion in the bank anymore has given me a negative spin. Now when I start my car I'm expecting it to not work, Wine girl to be upset at me, etc. So I really had to reign it in this morning and get the ball spinning in the opposite direction. It's worked well today. Tomorrow is a new one.

Neck Deep

Disclaimer: Nothing that follows is bad, just surprising. Now that been said.

I now treat the Comic's mom in my office since she has several problems. The Comic's sister usually comes in with her. Anyway today I'm thinking about them and I classified them as my MIL and SIL. How did I get neck deep in a relationship? This Sunday will be the 3 month point for the Comic and I. I have to admit this is the happiest I've ever been in a relationship. Compared to my other relationships since marriage this one has moved at light speed. So I'm still trying to catch up on all fronts which is one of the reasons for my days off from the Comic. I always know my emotional self is a bit slow on the uptake.

The doctor is having a hard time healing thy self. My back is bothering me this week. I was supposed to get adjusted Wednesday, but my friend had to cancel. Since then its gotten bothersome. I can only do so much myself so I'm going to get a massage today to help. It's going to be a busy weekend. Besides going to the gym with the Comic both days. We have a picnic to go to, game night with the singles, and a air show. Two of the events will be standing on hard surfaces which is never good for me.

Still trying to get in contact with Eric, but to no avail. I need is student id # so I can use the online system at his school to keep track of him.

Worn Out Weekend

I need a weekend to make up for my weekend. Since Winegirl was gone this weekend and I usually stay over the Comic's a lot. I invited her to stay the weekend at my place. As always we had lots of fun together with cooking, game playing, and watched a few movies. We did hook up with the singles Saturday to play some miniature golf that was lots of fun if not hot. One of the members said I had a fiery one this time which I had to agree on in terms of women.

I got the Comic a membership to the local rec center. So we went Saturday and Sunday to workout and we'll do that now as part of our weekends. I don't work out with anyone normally, but it was fun doing it with her. She joked all weekend that I was making her exercise and constantly eat. The Comic is trying to eat regularly instead of the 2 times a day she does now. I tell you by the time we go to bed, both of us are out like a light in a few minutes. I have no clue if it's the day or the sex. The Comic is enjoying joking that I go from rated G to X very fast and then back again.

It was interesting to have the Comic say how Eric looks up to me since he does so many things like me. It was strange feeling to have someone look up to me. It's one of those things of having to believe that I'm worth looking up to. On other news my ex said she never got my text so I did it again this morning so we'll see what happens.

I had the Comic help me with some sales stuff in the office. Wow she is good. Hell I should hire her to do the selling and I'll just treat.

Like Pop Rocks & Soda

Well I'm back from my unplanned weekend vacation. I didn't go far, but I ended up staying with the Comic Saturday and Sunday night. It was a weekend of fun events, great conversation, a lot of walking, loss of fluids, and sex. Oh the sex. The soda and pop rocks kind. The only downside to the whole weekend was the heat and let me tell you it was hot.

Saturday the Comic joined me and the singles to hit the Boardwalk Art Show. It was a lot of fun and we were thankful for the breeze. The show runs about 15 blocks. We lost people as we went and the Comic and I made it to 10 blocks before we called it quits since we had to walk all the way back the way we came. It was interesting for me since the Comic has a artist background. Before this date I had been paying for everything so it was nice to hear the Comic say things needed to be give and take.

The rest of the day was spent talking about our past and what we like, as well as our values. I pulled out my Lifestories game which is always fun for getting to know someone. I have to admit that the Comic is the first woman to know that moves less than I do in the bed while sleeping.

Sunday we woke late to meet the singles at the Mid-Summer Celebration. However when we got there nothing was happening. No celebration or anything which was really weird. The Comic asked if we could visit her father's grave since it was Father's day he had died recently. So we found his grave and got flowers for him and her sister.

We had to stop back at my place since I had forgotten the concert tickets there. On the way out I realized I had forgotten more condoms. Since she needed to pick some stuff up we decided to stop at Walmart. Guess what we found? The Mid Summer Celebration at a different historic house. So we stopped by to look around and enjoy. It wasn't as structured as last time which kind of sucked. You didn't know what was happening so it was hard to plan.

Our last event of the weekend was the 38 Special/Bret Michaels/Lynyrd Skynrd concert. We had premo lawn seats with our chairs. 38 Special was very good and enjoyable. I've never seen Brett Michaels. Holy crap is this guy narcissistic. He wore 2 shirts during the show, both of them pictures of himself. The best was when he wanted to thank his dad for Father's day. So he put a picture of himself instead of his dad on the screen behind him. It was hilarious. A lightening storm was fast approaching when Skynrd was starting. We heard their first 4 songs which I had no idea what they were. I know all their hits and these weren't it. I don't know if they have a new CD coming out or what. However not hearing anything I knew and the thought of getting soaked with the possibility of electrocution we decided to leave early. It worked out well cause a little after we got back to the Comics it poured.

I awoke this morning wanted another day of the weekend which was nice since I rarely feel that way.

A Personal Best

I had a personal best yesterday at work. I had 10 appointments on the book and by the end of the day I had a total of 5 "no shows". Yeah I was pretty fucking livid. Especially since they were my cash patients and that really hurt in my wallet for the week. It took me a long time not to take it personal like till this morning. I only talked to 2 of them and one asked to be charged a "no show" fee. Since I treat and collect the money I don't enforce the rule to much. Psychologically you need 2 different people to do it so you're not connected to it.

I was able to get an extra free ticket to the concert tomorrow night so I'll have the Comic come with me to enjoy. It's suppose to be humid so that always brings out the scattered thunderstorms in this area so hopefully we are spared since we'll be sitting on the lawn.

Today we're off to the Oceanfront for the Boardwalk Art show which is always fun. I'm very happy that the temperature is within reason. A couple of things will be interesting. The Comic and I will most likely walk right past Kitcat's apartment since free parking is always down at that end of the beach. The other is that the Comic is fair skinned and I don't know how she is going to protect herself. On a side note I think she might be anemic cause she is bruising way too easy. You can track our fun from the marks on her body.

Changes are starting to happen in the house. I like coming back into my room and closing the door to have some serenity. My bathroom is still in a bit of a mess. Not quite sure if it's being put back together or not. I'm trying to smooth it out, but it's becoming difficult.

The Many Moods

Psychiatrist: Well your tests show you're very sensitive.

Me: Bwahahahahaha (well actually I laughed in my head. I think I made the comment of, "yeah right.")

When it was explained to me all those years ago it made sense. Moderation of my internal dialogue of feelings is a rough ride for me. Why? Because I take things to personally. Case in point. Today a new patient called to get some information and then made an appointment to come in. Hooray, I'm happy. Hour later I get the message of cancellation. Now I'm sad. Since I talked to her I take it on the personal side. Dating wise I can understand that it's a numbers game. Business wise I have a harder time. Why, it should be easier. However I guess I put too much of myself out there and when I'm disappointed I look for the problem. Usually I come up with me which isn't always a good thing. Sometimes its like a dog chasing his tail while going down the drain. I have to admit I took it pretty good today than I usually do. However it was a work out and I still have this insane belief that it should come easy.

The new thing in my business group has been people making their presentations like a game show. I have to admit people have done a good job with it. I'm a pretty creative guy, but I have to admit that I'm a bit stumped with this. I can always do a normal presentation, but hey I like a challenge. Now I just need to match a game show with me getting chiropractic information across to them.

I'm really surprised. Tonight is Date Night the movie with the singles. I would have thought we would have had a bigger turnout for the show. At least people usually say they saw it already. I guess the nice weather has everyone thinking about other things.

I was happy to hear that Eric was able to tie a tie. So mission was accomplished. Also Harry Potter has been overthrown by the Percy Jackson books. Honestly I don't care what he reads as long as he is reading. Even as a infant I made sure he always had a bunch of books for him to enjoy. I'm happy that it's paying off as he grows.

Sit Ubo Sit. Good Dog.

I texted my ex last night about the dates for Eric's visit. Hours later I realized that I didn't even consider asking her to bring him to the airport. Still after all these years she trains me very well. I know the answer will be no like it always is or even worse she'll cancel at the last moment which is disastrous since I can't get the money back and I always have to pay a fee to make it a credit. I still need to use my credit by November from the last time she cancelled at the last minute. I know on my part its just avoiding pain, but I still have to go through the motions. At times I almost wonder why I fought for joint custody when I know little what goes on with Eric besides what we talk about.

I'm at the anger stage with grieving even though it's not really anything. The two things that bring it up are friends are still asking how we are doing and I have to explain what happened. The other is switching back to not thinking about her in my planning of activities. So I do find myself with a lot of free time this weekend. I did get together with the singles today for the annual Strawberry Festival which was fun. However most everyone I know is off doing something else this weekend.

Sitting with friend Clark the other day and I was listening to what he was saying. Then I knew exactly what he was going to say. Women don't like sex. I finished his sentence. I asked where he learned that from and he didn't know, but it was a belief he grew up with. I knew it too since I did the same, but for the life of me can't figure out where it came from. I've spent most of my adulthood trying to unlearn it, but it's a stubborn belief to let go of.

I was given an award that I have to list 7 facts about myself. Since I'm pretty open about everything here I'm going to have to think about it. Hey something to do this weekend.

A Blip on the Radar

I'm being reminded that grieving is like a boomerang. Just when you think it's out of sight it comes back into view. I'm going through my day and every once in a while Kitcat will come to mind. It's really not that bad feeling wise, but it's a bump in the road. I did make myself go on the dating site where we met yesterday mostly to let go of this "what will she think" feeling. It's crap since I'm not the one that did anything wrong. Didn't contact anyone since I'm not in the mood to do that yet.

Well it's been a record week here in the office for which I'm grateful for. While I'm still in debt, my bills have all been paid and I still have my Eric vacation money intact. Now it just needs to stay that way for another month.

So this year I'm doing something for Father's day. Usually it's just another day for me since I don't see Eric to the following week or two. This year in the back of my mind I figure I'd have Kitcat to spend the day with since I knew she wouldn't have her son on that day. However since that's not to be. I got myself the concert ticket special today of $10 for the Lynyrd Skynyrd/Brett Michaels/38 Special concert on Father's day. I made it a singles event and we'll see what happens, but at least I'll be doing something special for me.

Working the Corner

Should I be worried when my girlfriend is trying to raise money on a street corner in a bikini top and shorts? Kitcat had texted me when I got to the art show that she was off to a fundraiser. Since she didn't clarify I had much tamer things in my mind. I'm taking their standing at a intersection asking for money for her son's school since she didn't mention car wash. I did have to ask if she was wearing her platform shoes. I was surprised that she wasn't making much money. Like I told Kitcat, I've seen her in a bikini and less than that. She's very hot especially for her age. Plus she knows how to work it so I was surprised that a bunch of dirty old men didn't blow their lotto money on her.

Now while I may say my relationship is going slow, most of the known world says I move very fast. Who me? I have to admit my relationship with Kitcat is a lesson in patience. Not being able to see her as much as I would like is very trying at times for me. I have to admit, deep down I like instant gratification. It doesn't always have to be about me which its most not in my life. However when I do want something I do want it now. This was made obvious to me when I was walking up to the art show today. The first woman that I walked pass met my gaze, smiled, and did that hair thing. It happened a few times throughout the festival which got my mind working. We did it go to work at? Not being able to see Kitcat as much as I would like. And in front of me are women that are here. The idea was flushed a moment later like the usual idea of whacking someone upside the head with a bat for cutting me off. Honestly the only problem I have with Kitcat after almost 3 months is that I don't see her as much as I want which is my stuff. Other than that I really don't have any qualms with her which is very different from many of the other women I've dated. Most of the problem being school which will end for her in 5-6 months. So I do count my blessings with Kitcat since being good for me, she is one of the best I've dated.

The art show went very well. It was great to finally have a beautiful day for it. Only two others made it out, but both members I like very much so it was a fun time. Usually I'm a browser at these things with me only rarely buying something. However this time I did have my eye out for something for the office. While I did see a few things that I really liked, nothing spoke to me. They would be nice to have, but I would have to change to much of the decorations around to make it work. At this point I'm not ready to do that.

Whoops My Mistake

I still have no firm "date" with Kitcat this weekend. It is hard to schedule stuff with her crazy schedule, but I have to own that I don't usually say what days are good for me which I need to start doing. While I don't give up the things I really want to do, there is a grouping of stuff that I could take or leave that I'm wobbling on while I wait to see if we are getting together. I'm hoping that will get us better on track since we don't know what each other is doing most of the time. We started out this way with spur of the moment dating and its now taking over which isn't good for the long term. So I'll have to mention something later on about it.

The appointment with the personal trainer went well this morning. I was a bit nervous since its a good relationship for the office. So far he's on board to work together to market and also barter services back and forth. I've never thought about doing training, but I'm willing to give it a try. German girl said I don't need it. I think she doesn't want me to become a muscle head. I'd be happier to be a little more cut and my core tighter.

Today is the Stockley Garden art show which is always a treat. I'm going with the singles and this is the first time in 2 years that the weather is nice. Since it's twice a year we've dealt with freezing weather, rain, and the worse was the flood that was happening while we were there.

I was very happy to get the call yesterday saying that one of my cases was finally settled after 6 months. It's not a huge amount, but it will pay for me to see Eric next month which is all I want. I'll be really happy when my larger one from 2-3 years ago is settled. It should be in court soon. With that will be the return of medical insurance, woohoo.

Show me the Money

Eeek. I didn't blog yesterday. While I might not have something exciting to report everyday. I know it's important for me to do it just as I share with all my friends throughout the day. With all the changes around the office, I'm still playing catch up with many things still falling through the cracks. Most of it is small stuff, but it still needs to be done. If I can continue to grow the office I'll then consider getting some help to do all the grunt work. However I'm resistant to think about it. It's a childhood thing. My Dad would always dangle things in front of me for the future. Things being money. I believe it started when I was 5 with thousands of dollars that would be mine at some point. At 5 I really didn't give a crap, but he always made it exciting and then it would disappear. This was just a routine of my Dad. I think it feel under his tests of love that he was big with. He was always testing to see if you loved him for him or his money and stuff. It's probably while I'm not materialistic. One of the biggest things I learned from all of this was never to have hopes and expectations cause it just going to be a let down. Not having dreams to draw upon to direct my life really makes me swim around in circles which is a hard way to get ahead.

I went to the Funny Bone with the singles last night. It was a good show, but the big thing of the night is one of my members. She annoys me to no end. I've heard this from several of the other guys in the group. I'm not quite if its because she tries too hard, comments on everything, or she's just an ass. However I haven't figured out how to handle her yet without screaming, "shut the fuck up!" Since I don't think it would be helpful overall I haven't done it yet.

I'm happy to say Kitcat doesn't have her son this weekend. Like usual I would like to have it all planned out of when we are going to see each other, but that's not happening with her schedule. If I had a choice I would say Saturday night since I have to get up early tomorrow morning for a personal trainer that is coming to the office. We're going to trade services and market together which will be a big boost if it all works out.

The Grass is Greener

I was truly bummed when Kitcat asked if I wanted to come over and spend sometime on the beach with son and herself. I told her I wished I could but I had the BBQ and then game night. She was okay with it, but I wanted to dump everything to see her. However I had made that promise to myself when I got out of my marriage that I wouldn't give up my plans for another person anymore. Before and during marriage I had thrown my life away for my ex and I was left with nothing especially going against my beliefs. Today even though I was dying to see Kitcat I kept to my guns and went to everything I had scheduled.

The BBQ was fun and I was very happy the person invited me was there when I got there. The people were very friendly, but a senior crowd. It was for the Cosmopolitan group. The free steak BBQ was away to meet potential new members. While I know several people in the group who weren't there. It wasn't for me. Their big thing is fighting diabetes. While a worthwhile cause its not one that's dear to my heart. So I know I wouldn't have any passion for it.

Game night was fun as always. I got there late, but hey who am I to pass up on a free steak dinner. While I had fun, being late I didn't really connect with everyone like I usually do. However my tank tops and I were the targets of many jokes.

Here are the silver earrings I got Kitcat. For some reason I couldn't get a clear close up of them. I went with the non-fancy in the hopes that she could use them more often.

I finally got to talk to Eric today after about 2 weeks. He was happy since he was accepted into the school he wanted to attend. Other than that I found out his grandfather was still hanging in there. Besides that he wasn't in the mood to connect. I try not to take it personal and just be patient for the times when he does want to connect.

The outside of the house seems to be finished. It is so weird now to come home after 5 years to a place with grass. The property has been fixed up very nicely and we are no longer the bastard stepchild of the block. The picture is the actual house.

Is it Hot in Here or Is it Me?

It was in the 90's and humid. While there was a nice breeze to be out in the park at Earth day. Working in a storage unit was sheer torture and I passed out nicely last night from heat exhaustion. I did put the dresser in storage since it helped with packing more stuff in it since it organized the items around it. Today I finished moving everything out of the room. The file cabinet is in the hallway to be dumped somewhere and MT1 signed the contract so the place is hers. She'll start moving her stuff in tomorrow and getting it straightened out. I'm still trying to figure out where to put a few items.

Earth day was a lot of fun. We got to see a lot of recycled stuff like clothes made from bottles. It was very cool. We learned about the local animals and the problems we have in the area. I finally got the animal stranding phone number in case I see any hurt or dead marine wildlife. One of the group blended up her own smoothie by powering up a blender with a bicycle. She wasn't too happy when she was finished since it was a lot of work.

Kitcat and I texted a little yesterday, but we didn't get to talk till today. With school and everything else in her life she's very busy. I asked when I would see her again and she promised this week, just not when. I'm very happy that I know she likes me and things are going well. I'm very sensitive to change in people around me. It's a survival skill from growing up in a insane household. You learn to know when someone is going to freak out.

I know need to find sometime to reset my engine light so I can get my car inspected. In a normal car that would be easy as unconnecting your negative ground from your battery. However with my car its housed in the wheel well which means a lot of bolts to be loosened before I can get to it. What a pain.

I've called Eric a few times but haven't gotten him. Not sure if his grandfather has died yet or not. It's so weird to call and leave messages. On one hand I don't want to be all cheery with this going on, but I don't want to be a downer either.

Earth Day

Yesterday was a weird day with Kitcat. It was the first day we didn't really communicate. I had texted her twice throughout the day and didn't get a response until last night. She stated that she had slept most of the day trying to recover from the week. Not much happening today. I got a morning earlier, but so far no response. I have to admit I have only texted and have fallen into the lazy text trap. I'm meeting the singles in a little while for Earth day and will call her afterwards to see how she's doing.

Today is day 2 of cleaning out the extra room. I was able to get the cabinet out yesterday and today I'm working on the dresser and file cabinet. I'm thinking of taking the dresser back home and using it instead of the landlord's. I know if I put the dresser in storage it's going to get wrecked. I do need some boxes to finish packing up some junk that will go in storage. I want to be finished with it by tomorrow.

I tell you I need to make a better system to stay on everything in the office. I keep falling into the trap of focusing on one aspect and then the other fall off the wagon.

Climb that Mountain

Well I got the notice that my ex's dad will be dead in the next few days. I've dreaded this time coming for years since I know it will devastate her and therefore affect Eric. I'm not quite sure how she'll handle it or be afterwards. As long as she doesn't come knocking on my door I'll be happy.

Well the office seems to have gotten a jump start as the phone has been ringing this week which is a blessing. I need to finish paying off the income tax for the business and with no extra income coming in its kind of hard which brings me to my next comment. I like the warm weather. Why you may ask? Well I'll tell you. Women seem to fall out of their clothes better. I'm in my business meeting this morning listening and taking notes from the woman next to me. It's then that I realize that I indeed just saw what I thought I saw. Her bra had done a poor job of lassoing her breast in and was hanging out in her shirt. Hey I'm a guy I like this stuff even though I'm an ass man. Remember the only reason your butt is in the back is so you don't look at it all day long.

Today has been rearranging my workspace for the coming massage therapist. Like all things, extra space soon gets filled with something. Right now I'm downsizing a filing cabinet, dresser, and storage cabinet down to a 2 x 3 foot area that not all together. Yeah that's my problem too. Actually its allowing me to stream line the area and get rid of stuff that's just sitting there. Now to do some touch ups on the paint and spruce up the office someway. I'll probably need to ask Kitcat for some help on that. I'm proud to admit I'm a guy and have very limited fashion ability.

On that note I was happy for Kitcat on getting a job offer while still finishing up her studies. I know having money coming in will help relieve her stress levels.

I went to see the Green Zone last night starring Matt Damon. It was a good movie, but bring a barf bag. Holy crap that camera needed a shock absorber. Most of the movie is bouncing around and half way through it I thought I was going to lose it. The other problem was that I got there late due to a patient. A newbie from the meetup group was suppose to be there, but I couldn't see him in the dark. Afterwards I thought I saw him and started talking to this guy who turned out not to be him. However was very happy to regale me with a long winded tale of his 25 years in the service.

Life of Riley

Well a milestone was hit today. Kitcat called me "honey". Hey it made my day and like I said before its the little things for me. We got to talk about where we both were in our lives. For me I had the fear of not being successful enough, but she was okay with where I was in pulling my life back together. I have to admit in all my relationships this is the first one that I feel like something is growing.

I don't miss Asp, but I'm starting to see how I needed that relationship to have the one I have with Kitcat. They're both different women than I'm use to dating. A lot more assertive. Faced with adversity I'll back off and learn to adapt to the situation. Kitcat stands her ground and fights for what she wants. I know its why we probably like each other with each wanting a piece of the other. The other point is that sex is a little rougher with these two. I don't mind it, but having the practice with Asp kept my options open with Kitcat.

Robyn reminded me yesterday of my friends comment about my life when I moved down here to Virginia Beach. He always use to refer to me living the life of Riley. Honestly if I was making a decent salary I wouldn't have any real complaints. My life down here has been the best in my life even though I've been through some of the worst events in my adult life. One of the reasons I moved down here was to enjoy everything that the area had to offer and I try to do that on a regular basis. My next mission is to barter with a personal trainer to get a little more muscle and tone.

Now on the other end of the spectrum. My attempts at really putting my nose to the grindstone is getting some resistance. I really need to go back to really blocking my day out again so that I'm not all over the place. Even though I may not be seeing patients I need to have specific time to do all my admin and marketing stuff. I have too many extra stuff to suck my time up. The business people that I know that really soar have it really regimented and I need that better. So I have to start making a time and place for everything.

Well one more patient today and then off to see the Green Zone with the singles. It seems to be new guy night so I'm hoping they show.

Taste of Heritage

Today was the Taste of India event with my singles group. The turn out for my group was small since many of my members went with another eating out group. So we combined to walk around. Secret Agent man is in both groups and I've known him for years. He was trying to get me to joining their group. His jaw dropped when I told him I really didn't care that much for food. "You're shitting me," was his response. Eating out and drinking events rarely happen on my watch because of that. I always choose doing something besides eating events.

Anyway the food was good as was the entertainment. The colorful costumes were very attractive and I'm shocked at the difference to most European colors which are more bland. While I enjoyed myself, the event made me sad. I'm Italian and Filipino, but have no heritage. At some point my Mom made the decision to sterilize everything. It started with my older brother and continued down to me. They had a bit more than me growing up in Brooklyn neighborhoods that were culture controlled. For me I never met another Filipino person until I was in chiropractic college. I always had contact with the Italian side of the family, but it was never strong.

Seeing everyone proud of their heritage today and when I talk to Kitcat about all her family events I feel sad at what I missed out on. When I was growing up it was fun not to be dragged to all the family events that my friends dreaded going to. However as an adult I see I missed out on some important things of feeling apart of something bigger than feeling apart from.

Movie Watching

I seem to be in a slump of bad movies. Since Kitcat is camping with her son this weekend I knew I would have free nights. So I rented out some movies from the library to keep myself occupied. Whew I picked some snooze fest winners with the Curse of the Golden Flower, Lymelife, Protector, and Pirates of Caribbean 3 movie.

My presentation went well today. It was a small crowd which the church was apologetic for. However I know how it goes when trying to get people to any kind of event. Speaking of that tomorrow is Taste of India event for the singles. The funny thing is that many people wanted to do it and now that its on the schedule very few people are coming. However I had some Indian food yesterday when my neighbor at work invited me over to their pot luck lunch. It was so good that I can't wait for tomorrow's event.

Overall it was a slow and relaxing day. I was suppose to get together with friends in the early evening, but with that being cancelled I've had more free time than I wanted today. I'm hoping that doesn't happen tomorrow. It does remind me that I need to call my friend for that free dance lesson to see if I can learn timing.

Turning Tricks

I tell you, just when I think I've heard it all my Meetup group proves me wrong. One of my members who is getting close to the end of her grace period of her membership emailed me yesterday. Not once, not twice, but four times. The first time was call me. Like WTF? I only met you once for about 10 minutes. The second was her phone number. The last 2 were just a continued statement. You see she lost her job around the time she joined the group. Her issues were that they weren't many events up by her which is not that case. John does and awesome job with events. However he is one person so the events don't cater to everyone. The second is that she believes that there are many members in the group like her that have low funds. The last point is that maybe someone will pay for her at events. Truly WTF? Unless you're turning tricks in the parking lot I don't think complete strangers are going to be paying for you to go out and have fun.

Talking about self fulfilling prophecy. I was cleaning up to go upstairs last night and I put my cordless phone in my back pocket, got everything in my arms and then the phone rang. No one has the number except Kitcat. So in trying to get the phone I lost the call. So I called her to see if it was her and it wasn't, but we ended up talking for a while. Then she asked if she could call me back since she needed to run to the bathroom. 30 minutes later I'm feeling like I'm getting blown off. We texted this morning some and I'll see her tonight. I'll find out what happened since I just feel it was bit rude and weird.