What's Your Name?

I went to a Seniors Task force meeting this morning. It was enjoyable, although I don't know if I want to join or not. I know that's only $10 year, but the real thing is do I want to put the energy into it. If I start something I like to work it, but I saw everyone in the room. I already knew the people I need to know in the room. Everyone else would be a luck of the draw if it panned out for me. The truly interesting thing was that this month's meeting was at the Memory center. It's an Alzheimer's and Dementia place for the rich. The living arrangements were very nice and they have a town square in the middle of the facility which is like an old town with old movie posters and other things of a bygone era. They are also the only facility with a liquor license so residents can get alcohol if there doctor approves. I was impressed. Someone asked the price and it $8000 a month. Holy shit!!! No wonder it's so nice. I just don't know who's going to be able to afford it for any length of time.

The weather has been great here, yet Lawn boy's company seems to have less business. It's very strange since he's still at home when I leave. As many of you know I don't get up early so that's saying a lot. Hey it's the Landlord's problem.

Hopefully the nice weather will hold and I can hike with L tonight. I already worked out at the gym today so I won't have to worry about it tomorrow when I know I'm going to be dead from the beach walking.

The Specialist

Well today was my big day on the radio. I finally figured out what to say. It was a lot of fun and the host and I joked around a lot. They're behind in archiving do to problem with the server. When it becomes available I'll post it so you can listen if you like. Right now I'm trying to come down from the high of it. For me I'm always trying to regulate my energy since it can spike and valley with how I feel. The extremes are always a problem for me.

Besides all of this, it's a good day in the office. However I'm tired. I awoke early then fell back to sleep so when my alarm clock rang I was deep in sleep. I hate when that happens since I drag for the day.

I tell you it's weird having 3 assistant organizers for the singles. I'm so use to doing 3 events a week and now I can relax, but still plenty of events are happening. It was funny when I got a email from a lady wondering if we had any events going this week. I think we have like 10.

Free Falling

Well I have 24 more hours till I'm on the radio. It'll be an experience, but I still don't have what I'm going to talk about planned out. I had hoped to drive people to my website, but I'm having a hard time getting a email sign up button installed. I use to use the websites, but it's not worth the money. So I'm using another site, but for some reason they can't hook it up do to the flash. Whether this is true or it's sour grapes is beyond me. So I might just be talking about the office.

I'm teaming up with HHC lady to try and get more from the senior market in the area. While it's not a lot of money for me, it would help fill the holes in my day until I can install higher paying customers. For HHC lady it's her main business so she wants a doctor on her team. My problem is that I can sense she's codependent and as always I love a crazy chick. I'm happy to say that she's married so I have a natural barrier against asking her out.

Speaking of crazy chicks I do miss Phili. I realized this last night. While she was very wacky, we did get along very well and joking was big between us. So I miss that camaraderie at night.

Doing all this extra networking by going out to meet business people in the neighborhood had tired me out. So I think I'm going to leave work early to grab a Starbucks and veg out. So I can go home and think of my script for tomorrow.

Cold Rainy Monday

I jinxed myself today. I had a record day going I thought, but I wasn't quite sure. So I looked up my old stats to see if I was correct or not. While looking it up I thought to myself I'm jinxing myself by doing this. However everyone still coming was very solid. What happens? A couple that is always there didn't show. I was pissed. I couldn't believe it didn't happen.

I tell you I hate walking into doctor's offices that perpetuate the stereotypes. Over the last week I've walked into a lot of doctor's offices in my neighborhood in an attempt to have all the businesses work together. Since I'm the doctor I've been doing the medical side while my coach has been doing more of the retail side. I've met some very nice doctors and office managers. I've also met those that didn't really care. However my last stop was very different. It was a mill. Besides that I could smell the sickness in the air, it was just a depressing atmosphere. I talked to the front desk staff and I was told to wait. Then one came to me and told me to have a seat. I knew that was trouble so I stood next to the wall. Psychologically, sitting while the desk people stand puts them in the place of power and I wasn't giving it up. So I stood there and watched them and they avoided my eyes. I knew I was going to get pissed so I gave them 3-5 minutes for there office manager to get to me. Out of about 20 places this was the first one I was treated this way. When I had had it I just walked up and waited to be attended to which took sometime. I gave them my card and told them to call me. Some people just can't break out of the mold of being in control with people that walk in the door.

Lawn boy seems to be settling in. It's a different dynamic in the house will all guys. It's been a long time since I've lived in this kind of situation. Actually it was 15 year ago when I was in college. I tell you I find myself feeling like a pack animal and the need to prove my alpha maleness. It's weird and I don't know how to express it. Women just seem to slip into there separate track. They probably are jockeying amongst themselves. However now I find myself in that position and it's a bit of an eye opener.

Mother's Day

It was finally a completely dry day here in Virginia Beach which was a nice change. I went over to visit my Mom for Mother's day. Like an old car I see she still needs to warm up to before she's communicative. Once I got her outside she answered my questions about whether she wanted to sit in the sun or shade. Did she want sunglasses or not? Did she want me to do her nails first or call my brother? So it was nice. I did something I haven't done in a long time with her and that was take a picture. I don't know why I went back upstairs today to get my camera. She's changed so much in the last few years, I like not having hard proof of it. It's probably why I never ask if she knows who I am. In my Mom's usual fashion she fell asleep when I was working on her nails and trying to stretch out her fingers.

As many of you know I'm on Facebook. The newest sensation is Living Social which asks for your Top 5 pick of stuff ie. music, movies, books, etc. One thing I keep getting asked is what are my Top 5 things I would buy if I won the lottery. I have to really admit I'm pretty stumped. I'm not a materialist guy and having objects really doesn't do it for me. Besides a place to live a good DVD is the only thing I can think of. My friends are like cars? I only want a car that doesn't break down and is reliable. So this may take some thought.

Well in 3 days I'll be in the radio and I still have no idea what to say. Since it has no shelf life I have to focus everyone to my website to hopefully capitalize on it.

What's Been Happening

I tell you it's funny, just like dating sites, members sometimes use pictures that are probably from the 80's. So when they show up to an event they say who they are and I'm like "who". At least try to stay in the same decade so you look kind of the same. This happened at Friday's Happy hour. I'm the face of the group and everyone just looks for me. I look like my picture. This woman introduced her and I went through my mental inventory of faces and came up blank. Then she said her name and my brain came up with "can't compute" since a lot of time had passed since her picture and reality.

Yesterday it was off to see the new Star Trek movie. It was good, not great. The biggest problem I had with the movie was there was no camaraderie between characters. They were all just a bunch of individuals doing there shtick. While that worked 40 years ago the new writers were trying to scrub all the old stuff clean to start afresh. I think the scrubbed to much.

Today Lawn boy moves in with us. More to follow.

I've been finding myself biting my tongue not to ask women out. Since money is really tight and I'm focused on business and Eric visiting this summer, dating has been moved to a lower priority in my intelligent mind. However everything else is going through dating withdrawal. In a way I know it's good for me. At the moment dating isn't optional and I want it to be when I'm in dating mode. I make less mistakes and get a better class of woman.

Playing Those Mind Games

I swear my ex girlfriends are fucking with my mind. While I've come to a point of serenity with L she still does and say things to make me wonder if she wants to get back together again. Like I've stated before I think she doesn't want me, but doesn't want anyone else to have me.

At our Happy Hour tonight the Photographer was there. She hung out next to me and wondered what was up with this L. I told her our history and what was going on. The Photographer said that she comments on everything of mine like she's dating me. So I told her my theory and in her usual way she told me to tell L to back off. Throughout the evening I'm trying to pick up hints if her and Game boy are still together. It's just a theory of mine and I was looking for confirmation. I never really got it. All the information would fit on both sides of the chart. The really weird thing is that she leaned over and kissed me on the check out of the blue. Not once, but twice. WTF? Again I'm not looking to date her, but I wasn't the instigator in the breakups so I still have a torch for her too.

Who else is going to start sending me mixed messages next? I know it won't be Inverse who I saw there tonight since she works there. The interesting thing is I know what she wants and I'm truly not interested in her. It's weird. She's very attractive, but it doesn't do anything for me.

TGIF

I think I need to plan my week out better. While I enjoy hiking with L, beach hiking is rough on the body especially my legs. I was planning on going to the gym this morning like usual, but when I awoke I knew that it would be a waste. I'm just too sore to get a good work out. I was happy to fully shift L into a friend last night in my mind. It took some work. Like usual, every time I become reactive I have problems. While I didn't want to date her again, I was waiting for some kind of conformation which way she was going. What I always have to remember it doesn't matter what she wants. I have to be firm with what I want.

Yesterday was another day of walking into doctor's offices and introducing myself and getting people on board for our neighborhood business group. My skills are increasing and it went better than the day before.

I'm excited to see the new Star Trek movie tomorrow. The weird thing is that many women in the singles group have RSVP'd no. I expect that. Most said they were already busy or it wasn't there kind of movie. However no guys have RSVP'd. It's really weird. I have no idea what's up with that. I'll ask around tonight at our monthly Happy Hour.

Phili Exposed

In cleaning up her room the Landlord found Phili's expired registration for her car. When I had asked what her last name was a while ago he couldn't fully remember and I never followed up. So seeing the registration I saw her last name and Googled it. I was surprised how much stuff had her name. I know she did a bunch of plays, but she did some kind of movie in Philly so her name is on every movie site out there. I even found little videos of her acting. Boy was she young looking then which wasn't that long ago. What I did find that was interesting that I didn't know about, but the Landlord knew some was when she took her son to Florida. I guess the custody agreement said the child couldn't be taken out of state. She was arrested by the FBI and given 5 years probation. From what I could get is in that time she wasn't able to see her son. It's also what started her moving around. Interesting stuff.

Lawn boy is suppose to be getting his key to the house today. I haven't met him yet, but he's 25 and from Massachusetts. He's given up on his business degree and is working landscaping now. He offered to work minimum wage on the yard to be taken off his rent. The Landlord said that was a big thing in deciding if he would be accepted or not. He'll be taken Phili's old room so I have a neighbor again.

People are Strange

I'm doing a walk about today. Actually inside the medical building around the corner. I'm doing it for 2 reasons. One for our neighborhood business group so that we can all band together and help each other out in these tough economic times. The other is to hopefully get patients at some point. We the group is offering is a free directory that we are having delivered to 2000 people in the surrounding neighborhoods. Plus the group disseminates any information that affects the neighborhood like the upcoming closing of the local hospital. Most people are happy to be a part, but some employees are just like I don't know. If you're not in charge that's okay, but have a way to get the information to that person. Don't look at me with the deer in the headlights look.

The second thing I'm doing is writing out "thank you" cards for everyone that met with me. Yes I said write. There's not much I hate in this world, but writing is one of them. My handwriting has gone down the shitter as a doctor and it's gotten worse in that I don't really write anything. Everything I do is typed. So a few cards and my hand is cramping up. I may have to find a high school kid and give them $10-20 to do a bunch for me.