Somber Sunday

It was a somber morning here at the house. The landlord talked to Enigma, gave her the news, and her walking papers. During the whole thing the phone kept ringing. It's hard hearing him breakdown and cry. After 3-4 years I've never heard it and I know he tries to be that pillar of stoicism. The bizarre humor is him trying to convince people he's dying as he tries to take care of business. I told him it's such a reality break for people. We know him as a strong person and to have this happen so quickly is hard for most to take. His daughters I hear are still in denial. His ex will be here tomorrow to stay for a while to help with things. I've taken over the care taker position. I know it will not be forever, but will give me more time to get all my finances in order. I got rid of at least 4k this year and finished paying off everything that was small. Only the large stuff is still around and that will be just be time to pay it off. The other part is bringing in more money for the office to actually have a stable income. I was able to increase my patient population this year a very good amount. I at least want to do that much this coming year.

At the moment its hard for me emotionally with everything. The landlord and I have been together many years now so it will be a hard loss for me. The irony is that he'll be gone long before my Mom. Depending on how he's doing will now dictate if I bring Eric down during the holidays. So I'll see how that goes.

I was happy for Asp's call today. It made me smile and she had me laughing which was just what I needed. I will be staying by her place tonight and it will be great to see her. I'm packing a bag this time. I'm use to sleeping in the nude and sleeping with my clothes on is a big change. So I packed some PJ pants in case her son comes in.

I was planning on getting some work done on my car, but I think I may what this week to see what goes on. Things are changing so fast I want to be able to get my hands on money if I need it.

That was fast

Well Inverse is 2 months ahead of schedule. She's moving out. While I'll miss the T&A shots I get I'll be much happier without all the arguing between her and the landlord. I don't need to hear my parents arguing again. Inverse has flat out said that she won't listen to any of the landlord's suggestions and as usual she's not around for her daughter. Lost is falling way behind in school again. She had to make up kindergarten during the summer. So the plan is for them to move back to Inverse's parents so she can go back to school. There are some major holes in this plan you could drive a semi through. While I don't worry about Inverse I do worry about Lost since I see how Inverse parents raised her. However it's way beyond me. I think I'll keep the no sex policy up with her since she maybe something to look at, but everything else doesn't do it for me.

Well I thought we were going to have a big family Thanksgiving this year, but I see that's not happening. Enigma and family are going away for the holidays and with Inverse gone it'll just be the landlord and myself. I may visit friends that day also since it's my birthday, but we've done it before.

Still no word from my ex. What sucks is that the longer this goes on the higher the ticket prices go up. I'm definitely not buying anything before hand. I learned that lesson the hard way when we were married.

Happy Halloween

It was all quiet on the western front this morning when I came downstairs to grab breakfast before heading out the door. As it stands for all crazy people you can only keep the act up for so long. Since I wasn't home for family dinner the first few nights the landlord updated me about Inverse's praise for having a family meal together. By the next night Dancing with Stars was more important. Last night it was some sexual innuendo which the landlord put a stop to real fast with the kids there. What was funny was that Enigma made sure I was back in my normal seat and she was between Inverse and myself. No clue why.

Today was the annual Halloween kiddie parade here in the business park. We have a nursery school next to the lot. So they do a walk through for the kids to get candy which really just the grown ups corralling the kids through here since most have no clue what's going on. I was prepared this year. The adults asked for free treatment so I had coupons for them so we'll see what happens with that.

Due to the weather last night, L and I rescheduled our hike till tomorrow. It's suppose to be 83. It's Halloween! WTF. Now I'm not really complaining. I'll be walking on the beach the last day of October in shorts. However it will be hot for the munchkins trick or treating. Now times have changed since I was a kid. Back then Saturdays were the holiest of the Halloween days. You could trick or treatall day long. Go back to houses 5 times and have a truck load of loot to devour at the end of the day. Nowadays or at least here they have it restricted from 6-8 pm. Sorry kiddies it's not like the old days.

Just Another Saturday Night

I tell you switching from being very busy to having free time is rough for me. The weekends are no exception. When I have nothing planned the hours can really drag on me. I enjoy down time as much as the next person. However going from 60 to 0 just takes some getting use to. I worked, went to the gym, hit thrift stores, Barnes & Nobles, laundry, and a nap. I tell you it makes me antsy. Through all of this I've been watching Doctor Who which is something I'd never thought I'd say. I remember when my friend use to watch it when we were younger and I've heard it at many conventions. However after watching Torchwood I'd figure I'd give it a go. It's okay and I'll finish watching the season. I've seen better and I've seen worse.

It was nice to have dinner be just the landlord and myself. He was stating that since he announced that Inverse was moving back in, Enigma has been eating out a lot. Who knows why? Maybe can only have one mother hen in the house. I guess we'll see when Inverse moves in tomorrow. I won't be hear for dinner since I'll be at the J. Medicine Hat show. If you've never seen him make plans to see him if he comes to your area. It's a great and hilarious hypnotist show.

Old Math

I would like to go on the record that I don't have anyone looking like this at my Walmart. If I did I might hang out there more. The people that I have look like the pics at People of Walmart.

When I was growing up, the big joke was the new math. I guess now it's the old math. I mention this because Mouth came over to my room last night for some homework help will her mom, Enigma made dinner. Now when I suggested she write down the addition and subtraction problems underneath each other and just work it out. She looked at me like I had 3 heads. Now I never did get an answer of how they do it in school, but Enigma got the same reaction. I'll have to ask Eric, but is there now a newer math? If there is I don't know if it's helping.

The landlord should be back tomorrow night and real food will resume. Enigma isn't a bad cook, but most everything is directed at the kids so I'm wanting vegetables and something that can't be gotten at a fast food joint.

Lessons from the Little One

I got a quick and hard reminder how fast I can ignore abuse from Enigma's daughter Mouth. Most everyone has seen the video of the baby girl just talking and talking and talking. Well that's Mouth. The only difference is she's 7. Mouth while a nice girl is very talkative and bossy. She stopped over my room today to see what I was doing and wanted to help with my puzzle. I didn't mind the interaction, but after a while I realized I was ignoring her crap. She was just taking things out of my hand, handing me other things, telling me what to do, etc. I was amazed how I had dropped back into my old MO of just ignoring the behavior. It was almost a cold sweat moment. I learned to take this crap from my Mom and I ignored it in my early relationships. I use to be proud of my ability to take anything, but over the years I realized I didn't want it. Once I realized the problem I spoke up and started setting my boundaries with Mouth.

It was a quiet day today. My patients this morning were enjoyable in that they really had important questions they wanted answered and no one else was answering it for them. While I enjoyed doing it and I was happy to do so since I had the time. I'll have to find a way to do it that is time conscious of my other patients.

I was hoping to make the gym today, but by the time I left the office I was starving so I'll head over tomorrow. I finally was able to get over and get a haircut today. I can't believe being a bit shaggy is really annoying nowadays. Years ago I kept my hair long at it was never a problem. I do want to thank my barber for pointing out that I am losing hair in the back. It was almost amusing since he seemed surprised. I've been thinning out for years now.

I may have to start calling before I go visit my Mom to see if she's taking a nap. It's about a 30 mile round trip and to find her sleeping is disheartening. I know there is no reason to wake her up. She's not all there with the dementia and just waking her up never helps.

Bit of This, Bit of That

Talking to Eric the other night I realized how separated I can become from him without the regular contact. As he moves deeper into the tween years it's a harder to converse. We mostly talk about video games after he answers the obligatory questions of how school and life are going. I know he's not big on answering those questions, but like I informed him. If I don't ask I don't know what's happening in your life. So I wonder how it is on his end?

I finally got my Medicare information. I almost promised the girl on the end dinner for helping me out since she was such a big help and her cute laugh didn't hurt. However I know she wasn't in my state so I didn't say anything.

I think I may have the molokio on me this week. I use our city library a lot for books, CDs, and DVDs. However this week has just been a problem. I'm dropping stuff off and they're saying they don't have it. My stuff on hold isn't there when I arrive. Did I cut someone off or something?

On the home front. Enigma gave the landlord a big list of food to get so she could cook while he was gone. The funny thing is that she's been getting take out every night. It doesn't bother me, but it's just weird.

Halloween has come to the office. Pumpkins, autumn leaves, etc now decorate the place. Since the holiday will be on a Saturday this year and a one of the ones I will be closed I won't be dressing up for work this year. However one of my friends is having a Halloween party so I'll dig out my wizard costume for that.

I'm very happy to see that the weather has cleared up since I could use my hike with L this week. It's been a rough week.

Dinner for Two

If you had told me yesterday morning who I would be sitting next to that evening having dinner, just the two of us, I wouldn't of believed you. So I dinner with Inverse last night. I got home late and she came over to pick up her daughter. The landlord was trying to get rid of some left over food before his trip. Enigma and the landlord were going over the lay of the house while he was gone and Inverse's daughter was upstairs playing with the kids.

She had gained a few pounds, but still looks great. I asked about her new job. I tell you the woman goes through jobs faster than women go through rolls of toilet paper. She was pretty quick to ask if I was still on my woman fast. LOL. It's an inaccurate description, but a funny one never the less. I told her about MC and she told me about some fireman she was seeing. Inverse is like Megan Fox. Very attractive, but you can see the squirrels playing behind their eyes. I always have a hard time in this area. While part of me is saying sleep with like she wants. The other half is saying smash your hand with a hammer and be done with it. The hammer always wins cause the rational part of my mind knows that I'm not going to enjoy myself. However I can never shut the other part of my brain. It's like driving past a car accident. You have to look.

So for the next 3 weeks Enigma will be cooking. I saw her list of food items she wanted and I can feel my arteries clogging now. It's all kid based food. The landlord told me just to put any receipts I have to supplement my food in his basket.

The Bank of Dating Me

I was thinking I could be a bank today, but then I realized I wasn't holding any money just a lot of IOUs. The amount of time tracking down and correcting insurance company mistakes is growing, however that happens when volume increases. With it generally known that chiropractors don't fight for their money it makes it harder. I fight for every freakin' cent, but they keep trying. The one thing I have come to realize is that patients won't pay you the money owed until they see you. So if they never see you again, you're never getting the money again. I'm always amazed when a good patient just walks on a $20-30 bill. I can't believe how many of these I have and all I can do is scratch my head. What brings all this up. Well I have bills and they're late, because I have all this outstanding money. The amount of money I would have to pay someone to get it for me isn't worth it.

The landlord leaves tomorrow for his 3 weeks trip. Enigma is living up to her name on what she's doing for food. I'll work something out with the landlord tonight for myself. Since it's just me I can survive.

I did read something interesting on dating this morning. The point of the article was that as a guy and you've lost your job don't stop dating because of it. My belief was that without a job money would be tight plus your image as a provider is not there. Not that I'm looking to be a provider anymore, but it's a image. However they pointed out that women are more self sustaining nowadays and that as long as you weren't being a bum it wouldn't be a problem unless she was a gold digger. So what's your opinion?

2 Day Post

My presentation went well last night even though we had some last minute cancellations. So I had a cast of 9 to talk to. Everyone enjoyed themselves and having food really helped. My patients were funny about asking if they could pay for their own alcoholic drinks. I told them I was picking up the tab, but for the hard stuff they were on their own.

*** this is what happens when you post while you work. *** 9/25

My missing sponsor did email me and apologized for falling off the planet. He offered to pay his share. I wasn't quite sure so I asked my business coach. He didn't even blink, he just said take the money. His point was valid. I did my part and I would of had someone else fill his if he didn't reserve the spot. So at least the event didn't cost me anything now. It did what it was suppose to do which was bond me more to my patients. A few have now have stepped up to the plate to help spread the word about me to the world at large.

I'm feeling like a putz right now. I paid my malpractice online last week like I always do. I've done it often enough I didn't look for the confirmation email. So I emptied my account out today paying bills. Then I get the message from them about where's the money. Examining the whole thing I see that the payment never went through. Now the bill will be late which I hate, especially when I had it paid on time.

Well the landlord announced that he will be gone for 21 days. Now if it was just me that would be no problem. However with Enigma and kids who the hell knows. She's still deciding how she wants to handle meals during that time. The landlord knows that I'll survive on anything so he's not worried about me. My hope is that if Enigma is not cooking that he'll just leave me the usual microwave meals.

L found out last night that her tenant is leaving at the end of October. I talked to her about raising her price since it's 2 blocks from the beach and that something under 800 was way too cheap. If it was anyone else I might even thing about it since it's a 2 bedroom, but with L being below me it wouldn't work.

Introducing ...

I met our new roomie tonight and her son. I had to pick my jaw off the floor. Usually the landlord will mention if a woman is particularly attractive. Holy shit was she attractive. Can I have her stay in my room? She's a mestiso like me. Mestiso means half breed in Filipino. Her other half is Hungarian. She does need a health dose of self esteem since her son has worn her down from what I hear. However with boundaries the little guy did well tonight. So Legal girl takes the stage in our little world. I tell you with 7 people around a table for dinner it's like the Walton's. Actually it's perfect timing since Enigma and her kids have all settled in and we've gotten our little rituals down. I'm not quite sure if Legal girl is moving in before or after my landlord leaves for his 10 day trip.

Fragile Egg Shell Mind

Oye. 2 days without any medication is weird. No depression or anything like that, it's just the withdrawal from the medication. When my mind is not engaged I would say my brain feels like its made out of fragile crystal that would break if I moved it too fast. Not the greatest feeling even though its not strong. When I'm engaged in doing anything I don't feel it. I know most women won't understand this, but for a good portion of my day I try not to constantly use my mind. I just like to relax it so I stay relaxed. However for the moment it's not relaxed.

It was my usual slow Wednesday which was made slower by my first patient pulling a no show. Since I finished my marketing for next week I started my side business. I've designed a side business to service chiropractors, since I know the population, with PowerPoint presentations they can buy. I have a bunch of them since I always need a creative outlet and I make these. So I have a bunch lying around. Many of which I use. I know that all chiropractic marketing companies will say the #1 way to get new patients is doing lectures. However they sell them way over $100. I'm doing it for $80. I can keep my cost down by just emailing them the presentation instead of creating CD's. I'll keep production, postage and handling charges down to 0. So I've been organizing what I'll sell and I've spent a few hours tonight creating the website which I'll get running tomorrow. My hope is that it'll be a nice generator of money on the side to help me while I'm waiting for my insurance monies to come in.

Hiking with L went well tonight. It was the first time that it was fully sunny and hot. We've had so many times that it has just rained or threatening to. We stopped to talk to one woman with a puppy. She was attractive and was nice enough to keep showing her breasts off. However she made the husband comment and we moved on. L was being my wing person even though I wasn't looking for a date. The other thing that was interesting was the lesbian love fest at one end of the beach. I would say there was a group of 8 women. 2 were going at it hot and heavy under the umbrella while the rest sat around almost guarding it. It was almost surreal.

Tonight I met the new tenant and her son. Very nice people, but we'll see if they are as good as Enigma and her brood. When I get to know her better I'll give her a nickname. All I have right now is boob-shower-offer.

Let the Show Begin

Well today is #2 in the new cast of characters at the house. I think I will name the new lady Enigma since I can't figure something out here. Enigma is a desperate mom that has moved in with her two kids. I can't tell if she'll be out on 9/11 or have settled all her expenses with the landlord by then. She has a desperate look in her eye and I think she has dumped everything in her desperation. I'm not quite sure if she's up to snuff with getting with the flow of the household.

Now on the flip side her kids (a girl 7 and a boy 13), to be nicknamed later, are poster children for good kids. I actually like them more than her. They're smart, nice, and polite. She did something good, but interacting with her I don't see where it came from.

The health fair went well today. I did find out from many people that my prices were very reasonable. Also that many people there have tried to get chiropractic care, but have gotten the usual extravagant treatment plans and can't afford $2000 a month. So I felt validated in the way I treat my patients.

I was expecting it to be cool today, but it was another swelter house of a day. The rain that cooled it off; came too late in the day for me to go to storage to start purging stuff. I have the hankering to get rid of a lot of stuff that 5-6 years ago I wanted, but now it's like just dead weight to me. So it needs to be purged. I'm hoping tomorrow will be cool enough for that to happen.

I have 2 more days of what's left of my medicine to go. So far everything is going well and I hope it continues. I've been waking a little earlier which makes me wonder since early waking is a symptom of depression. I've been able to fall back to sleep after a while, but it is a new thing. So I'll keep an eye on it.