Hot Potato ... Hot Potato

I ran into L this morning at the gym. Since I had my head on straight it was no big deal. I said "hi" and she mumbled something back. I guess my not biting on her "offer" bothered her. Oh well. It was actually fun then since she was very uncomfortable if she had to deal with me around the equipment. It made me feel better about my decision.

Nothing planned for tonight. I'll call a few friends to see if anything is happening, but I have to admit New Years is not my holiday. I guess since I don't see it as a new beginning for anything besides a calender and taxes. I've never been a resolution type of guy. As I've been accused of over thinking I evaluate myself as life goes along and make any changes as needed. For me making the big year end resolutions are too grandiose for me. I've found that doing the small things every day make it a lot easier to get done.

Post Date Report

Sorry to say not much to report. Their wasn't much of a spark. She was a nice person, but the litmus test failed and it didn't go anywhere from there. We talked for awhile then I said I had to go.

Since the office has been slow today I agreed to see one more patient. Then I'll do some organizing since I told Spa girl she could put her small refrigerator in my spare room till she has space for it.

Oh well back to the bathroom walls to find another phone number.

Little of This, Little of That

Doing a little grieving today. Dreamt about how my Mom use to be. Not that it was a happy or healthy relationship, but it's what I grew up with. It was how I would describe. Now that is gone and its not coming back. So I guess somewhere deep inside of me I'm fully accepting it. The shock, anguish, anger, etc have passed and that leaves me with acceptance.

I've got whiplash from how it's been so busy for a while now and this week is dead. I know it's the holidays and most of my patients are away on vacation. This is the usual slow time for everyone except retail. I just don't like it.

Well looking forward to my date tomorrow with this woman. Like I said if it goes well she'll earn a nickname. We're doing Starbucks my usual on too since it's close to her place. Don't know enough about her to know what flower to get, but I'll see what looks nice at the florist.

F*CK!!!!!!!!!!

Okay I just got sodomized by a freakin' freight train. My Mom's nose guard broke on her glasses and I don't want the broken plastic to cut her nose. So I stopped by Lens Crafters to pick up new ones. I had hoped the drug stores would have them, but all they had were cushions. So I went in and after a while I'm able to get someone to help me. After what seems an eon I finally get through to her what I want. So she brings me over to the side and gets two out for me. She's putting them in a napkin for me so I'm hoping there free, but if not what's a few dollars. I get to the register and their $10. WTF! I almost threw them back at her, but I really didn't want to go through the hassle again. So I tossed her the money and walked out. On the way out I saw the price list I missed some how. Holy Fuck they want $3 for a screw. They seem to do it to you for free. Those they sell in the drug stores 6 for $2. Grumble ... grumble ... grumble.

Thursday 13

Thursday 13 Christmas Memories

1. Age 2-3 and being woken up to see Christmas with everyone before my brother left with his GF. We had one of those silver Christmas trees. It was bright and blurry for the 10 seconds I looked at it before I was spun around and taken back to bed.

2. When I was 10 and for some reason I wanted to know what I was getting for Christmas. So I unwrapped all my presents, looked at them, then wrapped them back up. Christmas sucks with no surprise.

3. The first year I had my paper route and I could afford to buy my own presents. I really didn't care what I got that year I was to excited to see how everyone liked what I bought them.

4. I broke up with my ex while we were still dating in a big blow out.

5. Years later to make it up to her I proposed to her on Christmas Eve.

6. Being woken up 2 months before Christmas by my ex since she was so excited to give my gifts. My only question was if I accept do I still get something else for Christmas. She said yes. Sucker!

7. Those first few years when Eric was young and to see his excitement with it all.

8. The first Christmas after we had separated and not to have the contact and to be all alone.

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The Day After

Well my bank account may not be happy, but I was happy with my tire purchase. It was a monsoon on the road today. No slip, no slide. Excellent.

Way to many changes to the schedule today at the office. I know it's slow already from the holidays, but it makes me worry. However worrying isn't going to help anything so I continued to reorganize the office bit by bit. It's not a fun job, but very helpful so I've been doing a little each day.

I have to admit I hate when the kids are off from school since the gym is then full of them. Making my afternoon run today I was greeted by a room full of the acne faced beaners. The good thing was their was no L. The gym is usually where I will run into her. With the worries of the office on my mind and no response from B2 about Starbucks I'm more susceptible to saying, "what the hey let's have sex". It would be a 180 degree turn for me and it's something I can't afford to do. Hopefully if I say it enough I will believe it. The good thing is that I must have something since she keeps trying to go back out again.

TMI Tuesday

1. What is your favorite holiday memory from when you were a kid? I believe I was 13. I had worked that year as a paperboy so I had my own money to buy presents. So it was more exciting to give than receive.
2. What is the "naughtiest" thing you have ever done under a Christmas tree? sex. Proposed to my ex on Christmas Eve and then we had sex before everyone came over.
3. On a scale of 1-10, how "good" were you this year? at least an 8. I make sure to keep my nose clean.
4. How long have you been playing TMI? Regularly? Jeez let me think. 3 months I think maybe a little longer. Yes regularly.
5. What is the most embarrassing thing that happened to you this year? L and I had just finished having sex on a piece of furniture. As we were getting untangled a fart slipped out. I was pretty mortified.
Bonus (as in optional):Tell us a secret from your past that you would share during a "Nobody in this room knows this about me" ice-breaker. I got stung in the ass by a bee.

Drive By

Okay I'm getting sick and tired of the drive by texting. I've gotten a few text messages today wishing me a Merry Christmas. Nice, but who the hell from. I don't text as you hopefully know. Only 1-2 people ever text me and it wasn't there numbers. Was it friends, patients, stalkers? At least sign the damn thing. Jeez.

Ah Life

Ah life it's always an adventure. Before I went out this morning I sent Christmas cheer to most everyone in my address book. Then I headed over to see my Mom. I brought her a coffee since she didn't want anything else. I made all my family phone calls there so she could talk to them. Then I did her nails before bringing her back for lunch. Since it was a nice day I stopped by the lake to walk and get some exercise and fresh air.

When I got back home I checked my mailbox and read all the thank yous. Then I opened the last one and it was from L (old GF). I wondered did I accidentally send her a email? Was she still in the old computer address book? Reading it I found out my address was in her computer and she was wishing me a Merry Christmas. So I shot her back a quick reply wishing her and her dog Happy Holidays. Then I realized there was an attachment. So I opened it and it's pictures of her. The break up had been weird since she sent a dear Mike email. However once in a while we run into each other or she drops me an email. My friend the therapist always said she is just making sure she can always turn to me when she needs. I know she wants to be FB without the friends part. While attractive since the sex was great it's not where I want to go with a woman. I want a deeper relationship than we had and I know it's not going to get there. So I don't want to put my energies into something that isn't going to payoff in the long run. So it's going to be a rough couple of days with the opportunity for sex close at hand like it was after I separated from the Latina a long time ago. As always my choice is to go for what I want or what is easy.

Merry Christmas

A little early, but Merry Christmas everyone. I was bored after watching a bunch of Soprano episodes. So I came online to browse around and I found the Santa Blog. Take a read it's pretty enjoyable.