The Long and Bumpy Road

Well it was an interesting trip down the road of life today. I was flying pretty high after I had set Eric's trip up. It would be a costly 24 hours since the transportation cost were set and it didn't matter how much time he would stay with me. However if my ex is good with taking him to the airport then future trips on his vacations ie. Christmas vacations would be awesome.

It was a little cooler than expected today, but it was still a great day for a walk on the beach. I did notice that L was a bit off today. So after a while I asked a few questions and she spilled the beans. Last week a married man she knew came onto her. For some reason she reciprocated and then sanity came back to her when he went to the bathroom. So she hightailed it home. However since they know each other he just went to her house. She ended up sleeping with this guy. While she's not proud of the whole incident their was major collateral damage. L's friend of 20 years after she informed him of what happened ended their friendship which devastated her. I skirted the adultery issue and stuck with the loss of a friendship. While I'm good at many things, strong emotions are still difficult for me. Whether they be mine or someone elses. So from my high with Eric, to this issue with L was a major swing for me.

Then it was off to Game night with the singles. We had a huge crowd tonight. During the event I got a text saying there was a problem with the trip and to call Eric. Let me tell you "WTF" was not equal to what I was thinking. Especially when I called and Eric was like everything was okay. However after we talked I found out he had thought we were only seeing each other for an hour instead of the 24. So with that straightened out we said we'd talk again tomorrow. I'm happy to have it all settled, but I was shaky afterwards.

I can't tell if Asp is trying to say she's interested. With her it's like 6th grade and she's picking on me. While I think she's attractive, I don't think our personalities match. We have a good ole time at events making jokes, but it reminds me of years ago when my ex and I use to bond over picking on people. I dropped it since I didn't think it was healthy behavior. While we have fun poking fun at each other in the group I don't think it's something to build on. If she wasn't in the group maybe a short fling would be fun, but I don't like making waves since I run it.

Mixed Blessings

Well I finally heard from my ex this morning. I was happy that she would take Eric to the airport. The limitations were that it had to be when the nurses aide was with her dad which limited flights. So I'll have Eric for 24 hours instead of 48 in 2 weeks. I'm not happy about the loss of day, but if she'll now take him I can set up visits during his week long vacations which will be awesome. So I'm very happy.

I've taken another step into the 21st century. I forget I have free unlimited Internet access with my cell phone. So I finally hooked up my email to my phone last night which was very sweet. I only had one bump in the road with it taking over one of my buttons. Now it's trying to get my Facebook mobile going.

As the usual goes here with our crazy weather. It was 40 during the night and it'll be in the 60's today. Tomorrow almost 70. So I'll head out with L today to hike on the beach and then Game night tonight.

What a Strange Feeling

Did I already say I'll be happy when Inverse is gone? She's got some weird painting gig now that the guy is paying her on how well he thinks she did. Hey even prostitutes know to get the full amount, not on whether you liked it or not. She was up way too early this morning making way too much racket in the kitchen. I'm tired today. Since so many people rescheduled I started the day relaxed by heading to Starbucks to read. Since I couldn't sleep this morning and I have to hit the ground running tomorrow I felt like treating myself.

I'm still awaiting a response from my ex. I'll repeat the text daily until I hear something. I informed Eric that his mom and I were discussing details so he'll ask her about it also. I don't like to bring him into our stuff, but then everything usually falls to me which makes it look like I'm the one unable to make it happen. Hey when it's my fault I don't mine, but when it's not mine I don't want the responsibility which my ex is great at throwing at me.

I tell you I can't remember the last time my bill box was empty. It looks freaking weird let me tell you. I need to pay for 2 more things Monday and then I should be back in the groove again. Actually I need to correct that I still need to pay rent here at the office, but I should be able to do that by next Friday. I did take $30 and order a few things off of Half.com for myself for my birthday to balance it all out.

That was fast

Well Inverse is 2 months ahead of schedule. She's moving out. While I'll miss the T&A shots I get I'll be much happier without all the arguing between her and the landlord. I don't need to hear my parents arguing again. Inverse has flat out said that she won't listen to any of the landlord's suggestions and as usual she's not around for her daughter. Lost is falling way behind in school again. She had to make up kindergarten during the summer. So the plan is for them to move back to Inverse's parents so she can go back to school. There are some major holes in this plan you could drive a semi through. While I don't worry about Inverse I do worry about Lost since I see how Inverse parents raised her. However it's way beyond me. I think I'll keep the no sex policy up with her since she maybe something to look at, but everything else doesn't do it for me.

Well I thought we were going to have a big family Thanksgiving this year, but I see that's not happening. Enigma and family are going away for the holidays and with Inverse gone it'll just be the landlord and myself. I may visit friends that day also since it's my birthday, but we've done it before.

Still no word from my ex. What sucks is that the longer this goes on the higher the ticket prices go up. I'm definitely not buying anything before hand. I learned that lesson the hard way when we were married.

Finally

Woohoo! I finally got a big check. My hear be still. Now I'm doing my damnest to spend it all. Actually it's just catching up with bills. The biggest thing is seeing Eric. I just texted my ex about the dates. Now I'm waiting with my guts all churned up since last visit didn't happen because she wouldn't drive him to the airport. Since I didn't have the money to pay to transport them both to the airport and back it didn't happen. I have the sick feeling this will now be the new stumbling block to us getting together. I can't believe after all these years of getting Eric ready to fly so we could see each other more often that this will be the problem.

Pink Day

When OVDC has a cancellation she colors it pink in her appointment book. When you get a bunch of them you have a pink day. Since I just delete them from my schedule, I'm computerized, I've taken her term. It was like freaking dominoes here this morning. One after another until my whole morning was free and so was my early afternoon. Seriously WTF? It does come in waves and this has been a tsunami week or at least the last 2 days. So I'll have to pay my rent tomorrow and tell the landlord that tonight. I hate that.

One thing I truly hate are phone books. We have like 4-5 different ones here for some ungodly reason. So about every 3-4 months we get a new stack of these books. Now I know why the Amazon rain forest is disappearing. I can barely stand my copy, but since we have 3 other suites in my hallway which are empty. I get to find a stack of these mothers blocking the door. I have no where to toss these piles of crap except across the lot at the dumpster.

Kids and their perceptions. Lost likes to crawl on my shoulders when I sit down to either play with the kids or read to them. For some reason she always has to point out that I'm losing hair. I try to explain it to her, but it doesn't seem to sink in. It's not like the landlord isn't bald so I'm not quite sure what it is.

Behind the 8 Ball

Since I got divorced money has been tight and I've gotten use to it. However this year some of my debt caught up with me and I had to pay it off. I was use to not having anything after I paid bills off, but now I'm just playing catch up and I'm hating it. It's become very tiresome. I'm going to need to ask the landlord for an extra day to pay the rent since 3 cash patients rescheduled to next week. I hate having to do it even though I know he'll say okay. If you haven't noticed I like things going smoothly. I'm happy that Geico requested my tax ID number which means they'll be paying me soon which will be some much needed funds to catch up on bills.

Speaking of bumps. I don't know if it's my struts in my car or what, but boy is my car creaking now with the start of the cold weather. Oh well something else to add on to the bill list.

It's Real and It's Spectacular

Amazing but true, Matel is actually producing Sugar Daddy Ken for the Barbie Palm Beach line. I guess the company has finally admitted that Barbie is a slut and this is what young women should look for in a man. So I guess they board room realized they did enough damage with the body image thing for the last 50 years and weren't going to get anymore out of that dead horse. So what else can we screw with? Hey we're old men with money. We like young hot women. This is the ultimate idea! Training 101 for Sugar Babies. No information was disclosed on the Palm Beach Barbie line, but hey that was probably another article.

Starbuck Revelations

Welcome to a story about a girl, Starbucks, and me. Since my birthday is later this month I'm starting to get all the free stuff to all the places I frequent and even a few that I don't. Since it was a rainy, damp day yesterday and a few hours to kill I decided I'd use my free Starbucks coupon. So I'm sitting there when this woman walks in that I think is very attractive. Nothing new I know. She noticed me and kept on going. It was then I realized I had seen her the week before working on something with another woman. I had thought she was very attractive then and with no ring to boot. Anyway her friend showed up, who by the way has a nice butt, but (no pun intended) doesn't do anything else for me. So in my usual fashion of examining everything I looked at this pair and I was stuck by something very quickly. The woman I like looks very haggard while her friend is very put together. This quickly appears on my radar since it's been a very long time since I've been attracted to a fix up job. You know the type the one that you'll help, they'll love you for the rest of their life, yada yada yada. While I had no feeling of wanting to help her, the way she carries herself is different from any women I've been attracted to in a long time. Okay I admit I'm anal with this stuff. However I know how ingrained my bad habits were and I have a healthy fear that they will slip in the back door when I'm not watching.

On a positive note Inverse announced that she is now dating the guy who's been coming to the house a few times. So hopefully I'm off her radar, but I doubt it.

How Do I Love Thee ...

I tell you I might enjoy the extra hour of time this weekend, but not when I forget about it. I was good an adjusted all the clocks in my room as well as my watches. What did I forget? I forgot the one in my car. I was running errands today and suppose to meet the singles for a movie at 4:30. I got there with perfect timing to be informed that the movie wouldn't be starting for another hour. It was then that I realized my mistake. Nothing like finding out you have an hour to kill on a damp, rainy day. Today's movie was 9. It was an enjoyable movie and perfect with this kind of weather.

It was interesting. When I mentioned last night that I had decided not to go out. Inverse stated that I should go out and possibly meet the woman of my dreams. Jeez I must be getting old cause that boat has sailed. I have spiritual qualities of what I would like in a woman, her values and perspectives. However that image I had when I was young and I'm not quite sure I had one then is not in my head anymore.