What's Up World?

Well I started my day off with a business meeting and the Destroyer trying to connect with me. I even got her ass placed in front of my face today. She's really trying to connect with me. If I thought I could just have sex and move on with her I might consider it, but that's the problem with crazy chicks you can't get rid of them that easy. You wake up and your already chained to the bed and not in a good way.

After many attempts to get through to the IRS I finally succeeded today. The 20 minute wait is a real detriment to connecting. Anyway I was happy I faxed over the paperwork last week since they didn't have it, but the lady was nice today and I was able to fax it directly to her. The money had been automatically deposited into her account last November. Why they sent me letter saying it was coming in January is beyond me.

Punk girl is still across the hall. She reminds me of an old employee I use to have. She would just burst into a room without knocking. It was so strong that the ceiling tiles would jump. I could never get across to her that the doctors were in with patients. Anyway Punk girl is the same way with saying hello in the office. And since my desk is behind the door you can't see what I'm doing so half the time I'm either on the phone or in the other room with a patient and she's already talking. Oye.

What the hell happen to Pay Less Shoes? I stopped in today to take a look around. Holy shit all the stuff I usually buy in there was $10-20 more. I think they need to rename it Pay More.

Crazy Hot Chicks

The two weeks between school being out and the Fourth of July have left my bank account empty since the office has been slow. So I'm scraping money together to pay bills and that always create anxiety in me. At these low moments I'm always the most susceptible to hot crazy chicks. Enter the Destroyer. I had my business meeting this morning and she was there in a little outfit, lots of skin. Yeah my crazy radar went off, but I'm having a hard time getting her out of my mind. I've had to stop myself from thinking of reasons to call her. Oye.

On other fronts Tango girl who I do like has been asking me on Facebook what I like to do in my spare time. I'm not use to be asked that out of the blue although I have to admit that I've been catching more women looking at me lately.

Knock Three Times

I did my weekly walk around of the neighborhood to meet more of the businesses and sign them up for our neighborhood group. My coach asked if I had went to all the medical places. I said yes, but found a big one that I didn't know existed. It was a very strange place. Half of the doctor's offices were closed and the rest said no to being listed in the community for free. It was kind of weird for them to do that. I drive past the building for 5 years now and didn't know what it was. Oh well to each there own. Everyone else I met was very nice.

So when I got back to the office it was thank you cards for everyone I met plus putting all there information in the appropriate places. It was a good time for me to do it since I had no one schedule. So someone had to walk in then. I was surprised it was the Destroyer and friend. She walked around my desk to hug me, but I shook her hand. They were cold calling businesses and saw mine so she stopped by. We talked for a little while before they hit the road again. However now my mind is running with her stopping by. She's an attractive woman, but my gut says trouble for me. I'm not saying she's a nut case, but I have the feeling we'll be oil and water. I'm very happy I nicknamed her the Destroyer since it keeps my mind in a better place.

Crazy Is

With all that's going on with Phili I've been asked many times what's my thing with crazy chicks. I forget that I've been blogging for years and many people haven't been reading that long. The thing is my Mom was nuts as was my ex wife. Dealing with crazy women is like a pacifier for me. While I'll end up with diaper rash from it, it is a comfortable place. When my ex and I broke up our marriage counselor told me that there would be no way I would go from my ex to a healthy relationship. I've lived by those words over the last 4-5 years and 60-70 women later. I can spot the craziness a mile away. It's still very attractive and probably always will. Just nowadays I have a choice if I want to enter that insane world again. It's how the Destroyer got her name. She's very attractive, active, and I know she's crazy as a loon. While I haven't seen anything super tangible, I've seen little things that set off alarms inside me. If I lived in the same space as her I would be talking about her everyday instead of Phili.

The funny thing is also how I perceive things. I'm attracted to nurturers even though I've never really dated one. I bring this up as I compare Inverse and Phili. Inverse had a very sexual body and pretty much offered to sleep with me. However knowing she just uses people didn't make her attractive to me. While Phili is unbalanced and a attractive athletic body she is also a caring person. So she is more attractive to me. Not quiet sure where I'm going with this now except that I'm starving and need food.

Alcohol, Rosy Glasses, & Breasts

Talking to the Landlord about the visitor. He said he told her to pass on the place since she wants to move to DC in June. His point was valid. Stick it out where you are for your daughter so you don't keep moving around. We both thought it was really weird that she didn't know what her bf did for work even though she is going to live with him in June.

Phili called to ask me to go to another baseball game tonight. I turned her down. She was quite surprised that I just didn't want to go and I didn't have other plans. It was too soon for me and I could use a break from her. I'm starting to think she's a closet alcoholic. The Landlord had said she had some AA history, but said she didn't explain. Through many of her stories I've heard of times when hasn't had a car for some strange reason as well as breaking custody agreements.

Anyway when Phili arrived she was very positive. I mean like 200% positive, I shit fairy dust positive. Since then she's had a few bumps in the working world and that glass has cracked. Last week while the Landlord was gone she brought down a 6 pack of empties. I began wondering if this was part of her early morning schedule of going out to her car before everyone got up. Phili could be headed for a lot of trouble.

While this week is slow, new patients are coming in an scheduling which is great.

Talking to the Destroyer this morning. It's been a while since I've seen her. While I'm happy I no longer have that strange attraction for her. It was hard not looking at her this morning. Yes I know you work in sales, but a shirt that is almost open to your belly button is a little much. I almost felt like taking dollar bills out for stuffing.

Comfortably Numb

After six meeting today with a max of 30 minutes in between them, I'm beat. When I walked into the sixth hoping for a relaxed atmosphere and hopefully some of my friends there. Boy was I wrong. Everyone was standing networking and all the people I was expecting there were no where to be scene. I sat for a moment to catch my wits before grabbing a soda. After I swallow from my stiff drink I met a few people. I got a possible job lead for Inverse and appointment to network Monday and another person I would follow up with.

While it was a good use of my time today since I didn't have any patient appointments it was rough. I think what pushed it over the top was running over to see OVDC for treatment since she's no where near anything that I do. However I needed treatment and didn't want to wait till next week. So I entertained her with more of my dating stories. She wants new ones for next week since she doesn't think I can go the week without dating. We'll see.

I think the other thing that tired me out was doing so much work in the car while I was driving. I may make a phone call or 2, but I had so many calls to make and no time that I was just sitting any place to do it. I have so many phone calls to make tomorrow it's crazy.

The good news is that the contacts I'm meeting are getting better and are closing in on me getting more business. I have to admit my problems are that I was at a low volume already and that I have a lot of debt. In the pass 3 months my business has increased in this economy where most people have dropped. Because I still struggle it's hard for me to see all the progress I've made.

I always have to be thankful for some of the names I give women I meet. I was talking to the Destroyer today. I have to admit she is an attractive woman. Anyway in conversing with her dating does cross my mind until I think "destroyer". I really had to think for a moment about I did give her this nickname for a reason. So then I was able to see all the traits of why I never want to date her. I have a meeting with her in a couple of weeks which I know I'll have to remember this information again. Other than that it's day 3 of no dating.

No More Lonely Nights

Thanksgiving day was nice and I was enjoying myself to about 4 o'clock. As it started to get dark the realization of being alone really sunk in for some reason. It really pulled me down to a point even I was surprised.

The funny thing that pulled me back up was the realization I could have asked 3 different women out yesterday. With my head on straight I was able to think of away to solve my dilemma. I knew that Saturn girl was free today since she had Thanksgiving last weekend when relatives visited. So I emailed her to see if she was around and if she wanted to get together to play some boardgames which I knew she enjoyed. I got a response after a while saying she was up for it, but she just needed to drop some soup off at her daughter's house who was sick. So I grabbed some games and headed on over.

She lives in the same complex as CPA girl. It was almost deja-vu walking in the place since it's the same set up. It was a fun evening talking and playing games. I found out we have a lot in common like both our favorite shows is Two and Half Men. There were other things that I was surprised.

She did ask if I knew how the Photographer was doing. I told her I hadn't talked to her in a week and that she had been dating Gameboy for awhile. Since we had gone to the Halloween party together she probably thought we were still together.

I never got any vibe from her that she was feeling any chemistry for me. So the Laws of Attraction still puzzle me. While it was a really fun night, lots in common, the chemistry was very low. Hey this is just like CPA girl, maybe it's the complex. On the other side of the fence I had the Destroyer yesterday that I had to bite my tongue not to ask her out. There doesn't seem like anyway to tip the odds in my favor.

Witchy Women (NSFW)

For my birthday today I seemed to have been blessed with a bunch of witchy women. I'll explain.

First up this morning I had a business meeting with the Destroyer. I have nicknamed her so I'll remember what she stands for even when I have no blood going to my brain. Actually it's not a sexual thing. I met her a few weeks ago when I was helping one of my business groups get new members. As soon as I saw her I was attracted to her and had a hard time taking my eyes off of her. I also knew I was way to attracted to her for only having said "hi" to her. My therapist told me always to run from these women. It's just unfinished business in my subconscious and it never works out. My ex was bad enough. So it was the most date like business meeting I've had. It's always funny to catch a woman stop herself from touching you. I'm glad I call her the Destroyer in my head, because it was hard as hell not to flirt or ask her out.

It was then off to the gym where who was sitting at the desk, but Gym girl (I had to give her a name). She flirted with me and I have to admit I really like her eyes, but something just isn't there. However I do know that a lot of my attraction is that she likes me. I'm not use to it so it always increases my interest.

She called and sang me a Happy Birthday song. It was nice. We talked about a few things which help me smooth what little resentments I still had left after her little stunt earlier this year.

Last up the Photographer announced to the Singles group that today is my birthday. For some reason I don't take it as a nice thing from her, but more of a adolescent prank.