Sunday Stories

Well I have found out that after living by myself for 3 days I no longer close the bathroom door when I'm in there. Also with the place empty I'm more apt to hang around then on the outside somewhere.

So after my talk with my bro the other day it helped put thing in perspective in my mind. So I'm now taking steps to not fly by the seat of my pants through life. It's gotten me this far, but I know it's on borrowed time. I've had the life insurance for a while so Eric would have something if I wasn't here. With all my driving I got a roadside policy to help me on those long drives to NY. Next month I will put a health plan back into effect. I really never go to the doctor except to my shrink to get my meds. So I really just want to be covered if I ever went into the hospital which would destroy me financially.

Next on the list is talking to my friend Tuesday about all the changes in the home loan front. When I separated from my ex I filed bankruptcy since I was left with all the marital debt. I want to know how long it will affect me on this front so I can decide if I'll shoot for an apartment soon or save for a place down the line.

On the dating front. I'm hearing more from the crickets. This time around on Match I'm finding all the stories people talk about. The biggest one being people just wasting your time. I have to wonder if the Painter and I will ever go out. I'm happy to keep talkng to her since she is a nice person, but the rest I don't know. Honestly I don't really care. I don't like the game playing, but I feel like I'm 10 years younger and this is my time. It's always weird to find yourself after you had a child, but hey better late than never. So I enjoy my time.

Anwyay on the dating front I had another of my singles events tonight, Comedy Improv. It seems April who I dated last year was usurped even though it was her baby and replaced. The show was still very good and it was nice to go with a nice size crowd. I did meet the Doctor there. Let me tell you her picture on her profile didn't do her justice. I actually had to ask her name twice since her pic wasn't that flattering. She's a pennisula girl and I'm not happy about that, but she was nice to talk to.

Can we remove the spellcheck button since it's totally worthless!

Comedy Night

Well Spa girl was able to make it tonight and I finally got to meet her dog Zoey when I picked her up. Improv was great as always and boy did I get swag tonight. For sitting in the front row which I enjoy we got fish lollipops. I got picked for one of the games and got a bag of goodies. Last but not least I got 2 tickets for dinner and pictures since I'm always there and bring so many people with me. It was nice to have a "normal" time with Spa girl and put my arm around her while we watched the show. The weird part of the night was April. She's the MC I dated earlier in the year. She ended it with me before I would have since there really wasn't much chemistry. I remember the first 2 show after that incident were awkward and this was like that. Other than that it was a fun night.

Lay Down Saturday

It's nice to relax. I was reminding myself last night that my office makes me the money while pizza fills in the gaps. I fall into the trap of thinking of everything from the pizza view. Probably since it is cash in hand. However an extra patient everyday I work pizza would equal out the same. So I was able to set goals to start dropping the second job. When I get to 50 a month I can drop a day and when I pass 60 I can drop it all together. A lot of it comes down to giving what I know a patient needs and what they will pay for. This week I've stayed my course with what I think and surprisingly patients have followed my recommendations. This alone will push up my stats the rest will be getting the new patients in the office.

The rest of the day yesterday was good. What can I say knowing someone likes you just makes life better. The hug and the look on Spa girl's face when she left convinced me of that. I'll stop over later to give her a hair clip she dropped here yesterday. I also want to say for her to be careful with her trip to NC. Anything with her ex to me can be physically dangerous to me so I just want her to know I don't want anything to happen to her.

I finally got Heroes season one set from Ebay. I'm really enjoying it. Besides the comic book feel it's just nice an interwoven story really grabs you once you get into it.

I see that everyone likes W Salsa girl. I like her too and she's very attractive. However the 15-20 year age difference is the problem. While I get along with the twenty something crowd a connection just doesn't happen as I've seen with April and CPA girl.

Realizations

Comedy Improv was hilarious as always and a great way to spend a Sunday night. April was a good sport since she became the star of the show with the continuous "April has a huge vagina" comment that dominated a number of games. Yeah that top hat of hers just slowly sunk over her entire head as the jokes flew. One thing I realized looking and interacting with April is that I probably wouldn't be able to be friends with CPA girl. April and I only went a few times and it was fun, but not enough chemistry. So I see her every month at the event since she is the MC and I think hey she's attractive and I know why I went out with her. However in the back of my head is the notion to go out with her again. I would never ask, but the thought is there. Now CPA girl I felt a LOT more connected than I did April. I don't think I could make the transition. I mention this because enough people say since we hit it off so well to be friends. Some people maybe able to do it, but not me.

My Past Still Haunts

For me talking and sharing always reveals something I need to change to move on in life. Looking over my stats for the year in the office shows double the amount of new patients than last year, but very little of an increase in office revenue. The realization is that I am still taking care of everyone else and leaving myself in the cold. An age old problem. I'm speeding people through care to make it affordable for them and leaving myself in poverty. Not helpful. So I need to make at least $500 per new patient coming in a month. Anything else and I'm slashing my own throat. I'm not looking to add anything that doesn't need to be down, but better teaching of what needs to be done to make them healthy. I'm a fast learner, but I know everyone else isn't.

Also today I was looking back to see what I have learned from my relationships this year. It actually started when I was drinking my sweet tea. A smile formed on my face when I remembered I had gotten this from CPA girl as a way to cut back on my soda intake. L had taught me to relax in my relationship as well as reconnect with my sexual side. April reminded me how much fun it is just to ask someone out of the blue.

Dating Thoughts

One thing I realized last night while I was laying around was how my dating life is better this year than it has been. When I first started dating about a year after I separated from my ex and about 17 years from my last date. I went on a LOT of first dates about 15 in 5-6 months. Hey I don't do anything half assed. I'll put the blame on myself as I got my dating legs back. However the 3 women I've dated this year have gone beyond that. April and CPA girl, I went out on 3-4 dates and L and I went out for about 3 months. So there were no one date wonders in 2007 so far. There have been many women that I have asked out that never got to the table, but that's okay. Grateful to see the progression.

Friday

It was nice to relax at home last night. I actually had TV on. I mean I usually watch DVD's, but I have to turn the VCR on to actually watch normal TV and I haven't since May when all new episodes ended. It was weird to watch.

I visited my Mom this morning not knowing how she would be. She was in good spirits. Her right hand wasn't that swollen. She could lift the arm, but she couldn't move her fingers. I know she had rehab this morning so we will see how it goes. Mostly she wanted to know what all the commotion had been about.

I left word for Eric last night, but got no response. We'll see how it goes over the next few days.

Still a little bit bothered with CPA girl. Well not her really just the circumstances. I know if you scratch me I'm a rebel underneath. I hate being helpless and this relationship has left the tinge of that in my mouth. We both liked each other, same core beliefs, but chemistry stopped it. Something I don't have control over. If she didn't like me that would be one thing, but this is a hard pill to swallow. The other thing I have been thinking about is that I grew up with very little so anything above that I'm happy with which isn't always the best. A dime is better than a nickel, but it still isn't much. With April and CPA Girl I knew there was a chemistry problem, but I continued. I know why I was still enjoying myself with them. Since I separated from me ex I have never been the one to break it off. I just wonder if I will know when to.

Improv

Well I went to see my monthly improv show. Sadly my little group has shrunk to only three people. Diane, Ed, and myself are the hardcore fans. We talked about how to get more people to come. We had hoped with them getting their liquor license would help, but I guess not. It was nice to have April come over afterwards and talk to us. I think the awkwardness of having dated has passed. I can still see what attracted me, but also what is missing to make it work. She still had her long hair so I asked if she won her bet, but she told me it had been postponed till later this month. For some reason she made a bet with her friends to do one pull up I believe. If she can't she'll be cutting her hair short.