Grieving Before the Road

I'm as surprised as the next person to admit that I'm grieving the end of my relationship with Asp. It's not major grieving, but I do catch myself at moments in one of the stages. The bigger thing I'm missing was the regular sex even though it was diminished at the end.

I'm not quite sure why, but I feel like a rat in a maze today. I think I'm just stressing myself out for the hell of it. I know I have a lot of balls in the air with things to get done in all aspects of my life, but I'm handling them. However I keep feeling all reved up like I'm doing a million things at once.

Tomorrow I'll hit the road to drive to NY to see Eric for the weekend and celebrate his birthday with him. I'm not looking forward to the drive, more so the one back since it's at night. It'll be great to see him. Since Tone and family will be arriving Monday I need to make sure the house is straightened up before I go. Once they finish this clean up run I want to start using the house more. I offered my friend Paul to stay with me anytime he wants since I've been staying with him all these years I've been visiting Eric. Also I want to start having friends over. I'll make some pasta and play some games or something. I like being social and this is the next step. I can tell it will probably be 2 more weeks before I will consider dating again.