Day 1

I went out with the Singles last night to see Burn After Reading. It was a really good movie, but not a feel good movie so please keep that in mind. I was happy to get out and be with people although I had a hard time being social. Sadness was pretty heavy on my heart.

So I'm going through my grieving process and this morning I have some anger. The Photographer told me she was going back to Game boy who she never officially broke up with. While I agree full chemistry wasn't there for us their was a lot of new stuff that I hadn't experienced before. She has a really good level of communication and physical interaction combined with that really incredible feeling of safety made it very interesting for me. I agree it probably wouldn't have gone all the way for me, but there were things I wanted to experience and learn more of. If Game boy wasn't around I think that would have happened. However when your not the dumper you are usually not in the place you think you are.

So this is day 1 of 41 days of not dating. I think that's how many more days till the end of the year. I have the singles to stay social which will help. However it's going to take a few days to get over not dating anyone to just take the pain away. I KNOW that's a bad way to be, but its in my head.