The Question

I met up with the singles last night for miniature golf which was lots of fun. I might have to take up golfing since I usually shoot par or 1 off. Everyone was joking that I sucked during practice cause I couldn't get the ball in the hole. For some reason they didn't get that I was shooting from 15 feet away instead of 3 like everyone else. Oh well. (insert evil laugh).

The Photographer was there and she's a physical gal. It's one thing I do like about her. So we'd talk throughout the night and she'll lean against me. Where am I going with this? I know I like her. I know what I like about her. However when I ask myself how she makes me feel I immediately hit a brick wall. That's my MO and problem. It's how I learned to deal with bad relationships. I just cut them out of it. I just go on what I think.

When I think of the Planner, Law girl, and L all of whom I dated for months at a time and ask the question of how they made me feel I really don't have an answer. I can write a report on what I liked though. So that's my homework at the moment. I'll start with my friends and associates on seeing how they make me feel. Then I'll work up my hierarchy of guinea pigs until I'll be able to access this in a relationship.

Tonight is game night and Panera bread. The last 2 times I've been there I've had women hit on my. Will third time be the same?