Centering Myself

As always I need to stop myself and ask how I'm feeling and experience it. I'm sad about it not working out with Blondie. Also I'm trying to have acceptance about listening to actions more than words. While Blondie may say a lot a great things about us and our interactions, her actions while we are together say another story. This can be the insanity zone as the two realities collide. I tell you it's going to be hard to add her to my dating chart to see what was good and bad since many things were just "chemistry".

Phili admitted last night that she's very flighty which I pretty much knew. However I didn't know if she was nuts too. She has a good sense of humor as we talked last night. The weirdest thing is that all her dresses and shorts are really tiny. I mean she has the legs to work it, but I almost asked were her pom poms were last night.

I'm off dating again. Not that I have an end date to it, but I know I need some time again. In my head dating is not optional at the moment and that's never a good thing. Like I said the other day it's when I make bad choices. The good thing is that I know I caught a few women's attention yesterday when I was out. Also I thought Gym girl had given up on me, but she tries so hard to get eye contact with me when I hand my membership card over. She's just not my type.