And I don't like change. This morning it was announced that my morning show radio people were no longer and that a new show would be starting next week. I've listened to them for years and I have to admit that this bothers me. I don't like when I have changes in relationships that mean they are ending. Movies will do the same thing to me. When I was young relationships were pulled away from me on a frequent basis so this strikes a cord in me that I don't like.
The other thing I'm working on this week is my weekend with the Planner. I'm playing down the sex angle when we're talking even though she is making it known that we haven't seen each other in over 2 weeks. It's an old tape from my ex of me wanting sex is a bad thing. The longer I'm with the Planner the more my scars from my marriage come up. Sex was a major one. So I'm trying to reprogram myself, but I feel like my hand is going to be slapped with a ruler for saying I'm looking forward to sex. Like many things I guess it will take time and work.
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Mike,
Looking forward to tenderness, to being intimate, to feeling connected, to the passion you monogamnously feel for the person you value - I think if the Planner knows THAT is how you specifically feel about sex with her, it will be very welcome...
Woohoo...enjoy it!
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