Shaky Start

I ended up sleeping a little late this morning since my morning was light. I'm not quite sure if it was the nap or the coke (soda), but even though I was tired I couldn't fall asleep.

On the way to the gym I had a feeling that I haven't experienced in a long time. The one that everything is going to fall apart. I have no idea where it came from although I would expect its just my negative side showing itself after a successful day Friday at work. Happy to say the work I've done over the last few weeks helped me able to bring myself up better than I use to. This was very important since I got a call a few minutes later from the mother of one of my patients saying that he would be stopping treatment for now. However they knew they would be back in at some point. If I hadn't had built myself back up a few minutes earlier this would have cracked me. However I was able to be happy to have gotten him pain free in a week after a serious accident.

I'm happy to report that the landlord is working to clean the moldy rug up. The place reeks today with my head hurting and throat rough. It's an oven outside so I can't open the windows, but hopefully by tomorrow the smell will be all gone.

The dating bug hit me strong this weekend. It didn't really go anyplace. I really think it came from I was feeling so good from last week that I wanted more. However I was able to deflate myself to be happy with everything else. Life is good and to happy with that. He I know I sound like I analyze everything, which I do I admit it. However I know myself. I'll screw myself over in a heartbeat with the best of intentions. So until some point in the future I like keeping myself on a short leash in this area.