IN my adult life I've always needed at least either work of home life to be stable. Through turmoil of marriage at time both places were trouble and I had no place to hide. When that happens I have problems since I can't meet my needs of happiness or at least survival.
What's the point you say? Well even though I can't afford it I would still like to have my own place. However like I was commenting on Travistee's blog about growing up and changing perspectives. Since I have never really lived by myself except dorm life and the few months after I spit from my ex. I would like to experience it in a better situation. However I see how I am when the house is empty now. While I enjoy blasting my music and being naked. It does lose its charm quickly. I like having someone in the house and I feel very unconnected when no one is around. Talk over dinner is a favorite of mine. I know a lot of this is because I am alone throughout the day. My patients are my social life, but they come and go and their is a different level of camaraderie.
While hiking this morning I talked about how I no longer want a place with property. While it looks great I no longer want the responsibility for taking care of it. My responsibilities are elsewhere and I don't want anymore. Like many single mom's who date that want a man to make the plans since they are tired of doing it in all other aspects of their life.
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I tend to get into super ruts when I am alone. I'd probably turn into the weird neighbor lady who wears mismatched clothes and collects old magazines if I didn't have someone in the house to interact with.
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