Friday

It was nice to relax at home last night. I actually had TV on. I mean I usually watch DVD's, but I have to turn the VCR on to actually watch normal TV and I haven't since May when all new episodes ended. It was weird to watch.

I visited my Mom this morning not knowing how she would be. She was in good spirits. Her right hand wasn't that swollen. She could lift the arm, but she couldn't move her fingers. I know she had rehab this morning so we will see how it goes. Mostly she wanted to know what all the commotion had been about.

I left word for Eric last night, but got no response. We'll see how it goes over the next few days.

Still a little bit bothered with CPA girl. Well not her really just the circumstances. I know if you scratch me I'm a rebel underneath. I hate being helpless and this relationship has left the tinge of that in my mouth. We both liked each other, same core beliefs, but chemistry stopped it. Something I don't have control over. If she didn't like me that would be one thing, but this is a hard pill to swallow. The other thing I have been thinking about is that I grew up with very little so anything above that I'm happy with which isn't always the best. A dime is better than a nickel, but it still isn't much. With April and CPA Girl I knew there was a chemistry problem, but I continued. I know why I was still enjoying myself with them. Since I separated from me ex I have never been the one to break it off. I just wonder if I will know when to.