Bells & Whistles

After my wondering of bells and whistles with Tech girl over the weekend I ran into a bells and whistles girl this morning. I was going to my new business meeting that I'm overseeing. She was searching for something in the lobby. I smiled as I went for the elevator and she smiled back. Then she attached herself to me (Not physically). She's scared of elevators. So I was her knight in shining armor for the ride up. She was attractive and if I had to scale her on a quick checklist to ask out I would say a 9-10. I realized on the ride up that I had the bells and whistles with her, but also a level of anxiety that I forget goes with it. While I still maybe attracted to the flame I also know somewhere that it also burns. I don't want to play with fire anymore.

I think I have the answer to an age old dating question of mine. I talked about this topic more when I was on AOL since it hasn't come up in a while. Anyway I texted Tech girl when I got home last night to tell her I was home safe and thank her for the evening. Anyway I didn't hear back from her last night which is a little weird since she always states that she is the night owl. She texted me this morning that she was out like a light after I left and she joked that I wore her out. Something she has said after all our dates. When I first started dating again after I separated from my ex. Many women said I wore them out and we weren't sexual or doing anything physical. Some of these women even ended it with me because of it. I was always at a lost as to why. I asked friends and no one ever had an answer. So when Tech girl said it today I think I finally had my answer. It's my own point of view, but I know when I'm with a woman that satisfies me emotionally I just relax. It's like being a kid again and you know everything is okay. A large portion of worry just drops away that I'm not even aware of. Since last Wednesday and our first date I've slept better and been more relaxed than I normally am. That's my theory and I'm sticking to it.