Terminal Velocity

After a long or rather quick weekend I find myself in a better mental state today. Nothing has changed money wise, but my attitudes have compensated. When I am in a lot of emotional pain I feel the want to isolate and feel separated from the rest of the world. Like a child that thinks no one is as bad off as he. I think that realization was my turning point yesterday. I've been in this spot enough times in the last 3 years to truly despise it, but to know it is not the end of the world. I remembered an acquaintance that was losing the battle with cancer and it reminded me of all the things I am grateful for. One of the bigger ones was how I handle this all now. Years ago I would of though of blowing my head off than deal with it. So progress is there especially when I can think of dating again. Still can't afford anything, but at least my mind has pulled out of its pity party death spiral.